first time

first time...
i know i shouldn't
but i can't stand to think bout this all the time
before it goes deeper..
before i can't handle it..
i should...

eventhough i know the outcome
that it eventually not my favor
i have to gather my courage
and put this to an end

it may be hard at first,
but somehow i did it
and to my suprise...
i managed to get over it.