current addiction..some by soyou and junggigo

Romanization: KROMANIZED.com

gakkeum sshig nado moreuge
jjajeungina neoreul hyanghan
mameun byeonhaji anhatneunde
hogshi naega isanghan geolkka
honja himdeulge jinaego isseosseo

teong bin bang honja meonghani
dwicheogida tibieneun
eoje bon geot gateun deurama
jamideul ttaekkaji hanbeondo
ulliji anhneun haendeuponeul deulgo

yojeum ttara naekkeoin deut
naekkeo anin naekkeo gateun neo
nikkeoin deut nikkeo anin
nikkeo gateun na
ige museun sai in geonji sashil
hetgallyeo muttugttug hage gulji ma
yeonin in deut yeonin anin
yeonin gateun neo naman bol deut
aemaehage nal daehaneun neo
ttaeroneun chingu gatdaneun mari
gwaenhi yojeum nan
deudgi shirheo jyeosseo

maeil achim neoui munjae nuneul
tteugo haru kkeuteneun
ni mogsorie jamdeulgo pa
jumareneun manheun saram sogeseo
boran deushi neol kkeureo ango shipeo

yojeum ttara naekkeoin deut
naekkeo anin naekkeo gateun neo
nikkeoin deut nikkeo anin
nikkeo gateun na chingu gatdaneun 
mari gwaenhi yojeum nan
deudgi shirheo jyeosseo

neo yojeum neo byeolloya neo byeolloya
na geunde nan neo ppuniya nan neo ppuniya
bunmyeonghage naege seoneul geueo jwo
jakku dwiro ppaeji malgo
nal saranghanda gobaeghae jwo

yeojeonhi chingu incheog tto yeonin
incheog haengdong haneun
moseubeul jeonbuda dorikyeo
saenggag halsurog neoui jinshimi
deo gunggeum haejineun geol
Girl you’re so ambiguous
nan mothae mueotdo ani
eojjeomyeon gijeogeul baraji Lotto
hwagshirhan pyohyeoneul wonhajiman
neoui miso ttuin pyojeonge
ijeo beoriji nan

yojeum ttara naekkeoin deut
naekkeo anin naekkeo gateun neo
nikkeoin deut nikkeo anin
nikkeo gateun na
sunjinhan cheog utji man malgo geuman
jom hae neo soljighage jom gureo bwa
ni mam soge nal nwadugo han nun
palji ma neoyamallo da
almyeonseo ttancheong piuji ma
pigonhage him ppaeji malgo eoseo
marhaejwo sarang handan mariya

English: POP!GASA

Sometimes, I get annoyed

without even knowing. But my

feelings for you haven’t changed

Maybe I’m the weird one, I thought

As I struggled by myself

While tossing and turning alone in

an empty room. The TV plays reruns

of yesterday’s drama

As I hold my phone that

doesn’t ring until I sleep

These days, it feels like you’re mine,

it seems like you’re mine but not

It feels like I’m yours,

it seems like I’m yours but not

What are we?

I’m confused, don’t be aloof

It feels like we’re lovers,

it seems like we’re lovers but not

Whenever you see me,

you act so vague to me

These days, I hate hearing

that I’m just like a friend

I want to open my eyes to your text

every morning. I want to fall asleep with

your voice at the end of the day. On the

weekends, I want to hug you in front

of a lot of people as if I’m showing off

These days, it feels like you’re mine,

it seems like you’re mine 

but not. It feels like I’m yours, 

it seems like I’m yours

but not. These days, I hate hearing

that I’m just like a friend

I don’t like you, don’t like you these days

But I only have you, I only have you

Clearly draw the line for me

Don’t pull out but 

confess your love to me

Pretending that we’re just friends,

acting like we’re lovers, don’t do that

The more I think about it,

I get more curious

about your real feelings

Girl you’re so ambiguous,

I can’t do anything or maybe

I’m expecting a miracle, lotto

I want a clear sign but

I forget all about it

when I see your smile

These days, it feels like you’re mine,

it seems like you’re mine but not

It feels like I’m yours, it seems like

I’m yours but not. Don’t just laugh

like you don’t know and stop this now,

be real with me. Don’t put me in your

heart and look elsewhere

Why don’t you stop acting like

you don’t know when you do know?

Don’t give excuses that you’re

tired but hurry and tell me, I love you

Esna- biting my lower lip

currently in love with most of the heirs ost..but i like this one the most ;)

Romanization

araet ibsul mollae mulgo

nun jigeushi gamji

nae momeul chaewo

oneun seollemeul gamchwo

waenji jakku ganjireowo neol saenggag

hamyeon honja mareul geon nege dwae

Give me a perfect day.

Oh I’ll stay, by your side

nan beolsseo nae mam

baneul deulkin geol

gidae haedo joheun nari olgeoya

joheun ilman jantteug daga olgeoya

himdeun nareul jikyeo bara bwa jul

han saram, neoin geot gateun

gibun deuneun geol

I wanna make you mine forever

kkeunheo jil deut ieojineun

haemalgeun useum, nun tteo

bomyeon nae geoshin geol

Give me a perfect day.

Oh I’ll stay, by your side

nan beolsseo nae mam

baneul deulkin geol

gidae haedo joheun nari olgeoya

joheun ilman jantteug daga olgeoya

himdeun nareul jikyeo bara bwa jul han

saram, neoin geot gateun

gibun deuneun geol

I wanna make you mine

bunmyeong joheun saram mannan

geolgeoya meotjin ilman

jantteug chaenggyeo julgeoya

sarang hanarodo

chungbunhal geot gateun geol,

Nothing’s better, better than I love

gidae haedo joheul sarang ilgeoya joheun

ilman jantteug daga olgeoya

himdeun nareul jikyeo bara bwa jul han

saram, neoin geot gateun

gibun deuneun geol

I wanna make you mine

English translation

I secretly bite my lower lip

and softly close my eyes

I try to hide the fluttering

feeling that fills my body

It tickles for some reason when

I think of you,

I start to talk to myself

Give me a perfect day,

oh I’ll stay, by your side I already

revealed half of my heart

A day where you can have high hopes

will come Only good things will come

The one person who will protect and

watch over the struggling me

I feel like that person is you

I wanna make you mine forever

Your bright smile continues

as if it will break

When I open my eyes, it’s mine

Give me a perfect day,

of I’ll stay, by your side

I already revealed

half of my heart

A day where you can have high hopes

will come Only good things will come

The one person who will protect

and watch over the struggling me

I feel like that person is you

I wanna make you mine

I definitely met a good person,

only great things will happen

I think just love

alone is enough

Nothing’s better,

better than our love

A day where you can have high hopes

will come Only good things will come

The one person who will protect

and watch over the struggling me

I feel like that person is you

I wanna make you mine

angin yang membawa khabar

khabar angin...maksud dia lebih kurang khabar yang tidak benar la..dalam hidup kita ni pasti pernah dengar khabar2 angin ni..tapi tu la, bak kata orang tua2 dulu..kalau xde angin,masakan pokok bergoyang?..kalau dah dengar khabar2 yang kurang enak tu janganlah terus percaya atau ignore...banyak udang banyak garam.banyak orang banyak ragam..sebaiknya siasatla dulu dan buatlah pertimbangan..kalau angkuh,tolak bulat-bulat kelak merana diri..

p/s : esok xde kelas..excited yeay!!!

kawan

kawan..apa guna kawan kalau time susah baru nk mintak tolong..time senang lupa..bukan nak mengungkit or membangkit..hati ni sakit..sakit sangat..dah banyak kali kena macam ni..treat others like you want them to treat you..sadly, most of them don't..no matter how well you treat them..diri ini manusia punya hati dan perasaan..kadang xkuat menghalang amarah..susahnya nak ikhlaskan diri dalam persahabatan kalau satu pihak je memberi dan satu pihak je menerima...T_T

aim

Aim for the stars..even if you fail,

you'll still reach the sky..

Cuti sem kali ni banyak masa terluang..since dah balik Malaysia cuti raya haritu so xleh balik lg..almaklumlah student duit elaun sara hidup pon xcukup apatah lagi nak beli tiket balik selalu..

So duduklah melanguk ( xsure ejaan betul ke x ) dekat rumah ni xtau nak buat apa..kebosanan..

ok point yang nak disampaikan sebenarnya dalam hidup ni kenalah ada tujuan, cita2 yang positif disertakan dengan usaha tuk menjalani hidup yang bermakna...kalau x, kosong kosong kosong (macam lagu najwa latiff hurm tapi xpernah pon dengar lagu ni lagi..kejap lagi nak cari)..so, marilah kita sama2 buat ulangkaji muhasabah diri apa tujuan sebenar hidup kita di dunia yang sementara ni..fikir2 kan lah ye ;)

mungkinkah?

ecece dah macam tajuk lagu dah title post ni..lama dah xmenulis,malam ni terasa nak menulis..hurmm cepatnya masa berlalu..sedar x sedar ramadhan dah hampir meninggalkan kita..ya Allah adakah kita tergolong dalam golongan orang yang beruntung? yang memanfaatkan ramadhan sepenuhnya? tepuk dada tanya diri sendiri..semoga amalan2 kita diterima Allah..aminn insyaAllah..agak2 masih berpeluang x bertemu ramadhan yang akan datang dan seterusnya..mungkinkah?

ok sejak2 balik malaysia busy kemain..tolong mak buat kuih raya,jahit baju bagai...study entah kemana..padahal xm right after raya...cita2 tinggi melangit tapi usaha ke laut..macam mana nak berjaya ni umairah? huhu T_T..

perasaan cuak tu still xdapat mengatasi perasaan gembira dapat balik malaysia spend time dgn family..weheee~.manusia2..mudah lupa..yang plg happy org yg visit rumah,makcik yg jual kuih dekat bazar,makcik2 dekat maskid smua ingat empunya diri ni masih bersekolah menengah..inilah untungnya jadi kakak kpd adik2 yg tinggi lampai muka matang..akak jadi adik..terasa muda la plak..kekeke..but after dapat wedding invitation dari member2 seseri tetus terasa tua balik..sedihla xdpt attend wedding member2..agak2 nanti empunya diri invite ke majlis member2 dtg x? huhu..hope dpt dtg..kalau x alahai sedihnyaa..

oke cukup2 la merapu..masih banyak kerja menanti esok..masih belum terlambat nak wish salam ramadhan..manfaatkan sisa2 hari terakhir ni dengan perbanyakkan amal ibadah..(ingatan untuk diri sendiri jugak) dan selamat menyambut Aidilfitri..maaf zahir dan batin :)

*antara aktiviti2 sepanjang cuti kali ni...camwhoring,baking,menjahit dan yg paling banyak sekali melantak..tahun lepas after raya naik 5 kg..tahun ni agak2 berapa? ayuh tunggu dan lihat....

jual ikan

huhu..i'm not selling a fish or anything *except for herbalife products*

just want to share something bout this post title...i've seen and have been through a lot within these 3 years in Bali...and for the next two and half years..but dealing with those selfish people are the things that i hate the most..i don't know why it always happen to me..am i too nice? helping people cause i pity them and i know if i could then i should help in return when i'm in need they are there to help me. but it won't happen..and here i am posting a post to share the feeling of a loner who doesnt have anyone to rely on when in need..disappointment aren't gonna solve anything umairah...brace up..face the world!!! Allah is there for you..Always...

*a special thanks to k.nawa yang dah dengar curhat = curahan hati

feel relieved after having a whatsapp session with you ;)

P.U.S.H

When everything seems to go wrong .................................. just P.U.S.H!
When the job gets you down .............................................. just P.U.S.H!
When people don't react the way you think they should ..... just P.U.S.H!

When your money is "gone" and the bills are due ............... just P.U.S.H!
When people just don't understand you ............................. just P.U.S.H!

P + U + S + H = Pray + Until + Something + Happens

* There is a great story behind these quote..got this from my friend when I reached the bottom of my life. Whenever i'm feeling sad like now i'll go through my mailbox and re read the story..somehow this quote makes me feel better as I always believe HE is watching me and I'm not alone..Alhamdulillah...

conversation...

anak : assalammualaikum mak..buat apa tu?

mak : wasalam..tadi tengah makan

anak : mak...nak kawen bole?

mak : bole je..dah ada calon ke?

anak : hehe..kalau orang indonesia bole?

mak : xkesah janji yang ada agama

anak : orang Bali? agama hindu?

mak : hish xyahla..awak tu pon xseberapa nak bimbing orang lain plak

anak : apa salahnya dakwah melalui perkahwinan..

 * kedengaran ayah menyampuk..ha berani la bawak balik umah laki bertattoo bagai..ayah tutup pintu rumah rapat2..

anak dan mak tertawa..

anak : xdela saja gurau2 kacau mak ayah..lama xcall sebab tu buat 'drama'

mak : la ingatkan serius nak kawen tadi...xabes blaja lagi mak bagi tunang dulu la..sebelum clinical bole la tunang..nak kawen pas abes blaja la ye..buat sekali majlis dengan kakcik hujung tahun 2016 ke..

anak : wokeyh..no problem..set..

lombok trip

 

rajin la plak nak mengepost..ni gara2 minum starbuck so xbole tdo...gini la jadiny kalau low tolerance terhadap caffeine..drug pon sama..makan panadol pon bole ngantuk apa cte tu? ok post ni throwback trip lombok dulu2..

SAYA SUKA LOMBOK BUKAN ANAK2 TERUNANYA!!! perlu caps lock takut orang lain salah erti.agak2 if rasa bosan nak escape ke gili trawangan lombok lagi..murah pon murah..pulau kecik je..xsampai sejam cycle dah abes keliling pulau..snorkelling murah n cantek..terbaikk!!!

*ni pantai segigi if xsilap

*cycling around Gili Trawangan Lombok Island

*ktorg bajet tourist yg fun

*teruja first time naik ferry..kat luar ni usha sunset..

dreams

i have a dream...a song to sing..lalaalalala

ok meroyan kejap..tadi baru abes xm cardio..so dah xberapa nak betul..

I think cardio xm is the worst xm i've been through..dengan lack of preparation study etc..jangan harapla nak pass...if pass memang miracle la..dahla passing mark 70 bukannye 40 macam skola rendah.haha..

back to the post title..

dreams..

saya nak kawen bole?

dah tetiba sal kawen ni kenapa plak Umairah?

saja..skrg almost tiap bulan dapat wedding invitation dari rakan2 sebaya..terasa diri dah tua..dikala orang lain sibuk mencari pasangan mendirikan rumah tangga,diriku masih lagi bergelut dengan xm,bertemankan buku sepanjang masa demi mengejar cita-cita..tercampak di pulau Bali ni menjalani hidup sebagai medical student yang agak kesepian..

jealous memang jealous tengok rakan2 yang lain dah bekerja bahagia dengan dunia mereka..kita dekat sini masih jauh perjalanan untuk menggenggam segulung ijazah.kenapa oh kenapa why oh why?

xpela..sabarrr Umairah..itu sudah ketentuanNya..

akhir kata,perbaiki diri jalani aja kehidupan sehari-hari..kekeke

p/s : 2mggu lepas balik mesia 5hari..mggu lepas jalan2 jogja 2hari..dah tau reason kenapa lack of preparation for cardio xm.sendiri cari pasal sendiri tanggung..padan muka kalau xlulus.bwekk :p

*jealous tengok bangunan fakulti UGM jogja lagi cantek dari fakulti UNUD bali..

* dengan mira twin masa dekat MSU..skrg xtwin dh sbb duk jauh asing2 and dia pakai contact lense.bwahaha

*jogja banyak tempat makan cantik murah and sedap...

*siapa suka susu definitely suka kalimilk ni..if duduk jogja hari2 kot lepak sini..;)

kantoi

tak sangka still ada yg baca blog yg dh bersawang ni..that's why main tulis je smua..end up my sister ada baca my last post.ahhh dah xsuprise la balik bulan 5 nanti.tapi dia dah janji nak simpan rahsia from other family members..hope she can keep her promise.ee xsabar nak balik even for 5 days..hehe..ok2 dah2 meroyan..esok xm..my sister pon final xm matrik start esok..pray for us to do well in our xm k..;)

update

Kita hanya merancang Allah yang menentukan..
taxpela mungkin xde rezeki kali ni nak melancong ke singapore..
tapi plan nak balik Malaysia buat kali kedua tahun ni selepas bulan march haritu,
insyaAllah akan diteruskan tanpa pengetahuan family..ala2 nak buat suprise gitu..;)
thanks BIG AirAsia yg buat promo redeem flight.so xdela rasa membazir sgt duit abes beli tiket since dapat tiket murah.

Now dah start mencari rumah2 murah nak menyewa dgn rakan2..
ramai yg xgalakkan duduk serumah especially tuk dak2 perempuan..takut gaduh la apa la.
betul mmg betul since pompuan ni emotional sket,tapi..banyak kelebihan duduk rumah ramai2 ni..
kadang2 terleka atau susah nak bangun solat ada yg tegur atau kejutkan, bila sakit demam ada yang tolong tengok-tengokkan and bila rasa malas belajar tgk kawan serumah blaja rasa motivated.hope dapatla rumah yg murah dan bersesuaian.. Aaminn...insyaAllah..

yang paling penting sekarang exam next week!!!!..tapiii...macam biasa sentiasa xbersedia..huhu..hope xm kali ni lancar dan sukses..;)

?

Life is full of a questions
Even though years has passed
Yet I still didn't know the answer..


I'm tired of waiting
Wish I have all the answer to my questions
But that's how life is

Keep holding on Umairah
Cause you are stronger
Better than your expectation.

a month

home in a month...
so close yet so far
i don't want to be far apart from my family
its difficult and lonely.

heart..
please be strong
3 more years
and you will win

siapa cepat dia dapat

that day ada usha sebijik jam ni..time tu memang dah berkenan and hampir2 nak amek since budget ada.but terasa membazir plak if beli coz dah banyak sangat duit abes shopping haritu.then nak beli la bulan ni.dah semangat bangun pagi nak g beli usha balik tgk2 jam tu dah xde.warghhh T_T trus xbersemangat rasa. tula,len kali if berkenan grab je..xdela rasa menyesal macam skrg..huhu...#lessonlearned

first time

first time...
i know i shouldn't
but i can't stand to think bout this all the time
before it goes deeper..
before i can't handle it..
i should...

eventhough i know the outcome
that it eventually not my favor
i have to gather my courage
and put this to an end

it may be hard at first,
but somehow i did it
and to my suprise...
i managed to get over it.

HATI

perasaan marah,bengang,benci,kecewa semua ada
huhu...duhai hati bersabarlah

endocrine xm

xm is coming
lots to cover
time is ticking
I end up with blogging
and doing unnecessary thing
typical me..Umairah

random

How i wish I'm in a cold country wearing a trendy nice looking winter coat..

p/s: I know I will someday...;)